Do you ever have a family event that seems to be going perfectly until...oops, someone lets the cat out of the bag? Says the wrong thing or is just braizen & rude? Those are the only kind of Holidays I ever attend. The last couple years I have come to realize and accept how dsyfunctional my family is until it is brought to a different level of agony.
I've told you a bit of my history, how my parents are divorced (have been for nearly 2 decades) and how my mom struggled. Well, after all these years, she still hasn't dealt with it. The guilt, shame & hurt are still part of her everyday life. Which to me is ridiculous. She has a wonderful man in her life that is there through thick & thin...why hold on to those negative feelings?
I am pretty sure I'm over Holidays. I'm ready to focus on my little family & withdraw from the roller coaster ride. I know what I want to do different with my children & I want them to feel safe, secure & unconditional love. I hate that this many years down the road these quarrels arise & she throws a pity party & I'm left trying to figure out what the hell just happened!?!
Happy Easter...we'll see how the rest of the year's Holidays go!!
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I am loving your blog. I think everyone has somewhat a dysfunctional family....just depends on how you deal with them....I'm like you, tired of the process. Hang in there.
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